Not only do I feel romantic loneliness, but also loneliness regarding friendship.  My friends Veronica, Juliet and Matt all moved into their college either today or yesterday, and the chances of me talking to them-let alone seeing them-is very slim anymore.

Many-and I mean many- of my other good friends are also starting college.  Colleen, Katelyn, and even more.  The worst thing about it, and yet also the best for them, is that they are all going to really good colleges. Seton Hall, NYU … all good colleges, all of them.

I’m feeling so lonely right now it’s not even funny.  I don’t have that many trustworthy friends left.

But I have to remain strong.  I mean, I still need to finish high school.  I’m going to be a sophomore, this is no time to be sad.

No matter what pain you may feel

No matter what lonesliness may come

You mustn’t close your eyes to it

(Ayumi Hamasaki ; SURREAL)