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I’ve realized my loneliness
Not only do I feel romantic loneliness, but also loneliness regarding friendship. My friends Veronica, Juliet and Matt all moved into their college either today or yesterday, and the chances of me talking to them-let alone seeing them-is very slim anymore.
Many-and I mean many- of my other good friends are also starting college. Colleen, Katelyn, and even more. The worst thing about it, and yet also the best for them, is that they are all going to really good colleges. Seton Hall, NYU … all good colleges, all of them.
I’m feeling so lonely right now it’s not even funny. I don’t have that many trustworthy friends left.
But I have to remain strong. I mean, I still need to finish high school. I’m going to be a sophomore, this is no time to be sad.
No matter what pain you may feel
No matter what lonesliness may come
You mustn’t close your eyes to it
(Ayumi Hamasaki ; SURREAL)
a poem i wrote, ‘all in vain’
I don’t really know if anybody here knows this, but I’m very fond if writing. Here is a poem while In a very dark mood. That being said, the poem is kind of dark also. Basically, the story was the fact that I found a guy who I really liked a lot. I didn’t pursue mainly because there were just tons of conflicting circumstances where it couldn’t work, and I was depressed about that. Although, I am ok now. :3
‘all in vain’
These thoughts that are floating in my mind
These feelings that are flowing out my heart
The love that I have was hard to find
I lost my happiness, although just a part
The search was unbearable
Yet the pain was worth it
And now, the happiness is real
But the love is useless
a friend’s distress
my friend Gina and my cousin Becky (who happen to be best friends) are sleeping over my house today. It’s because the can’t stay at Becky’s and Gina is too depressed to go back home. Her mom had yelled at Gina and her brother and stormed out of the house, saying “I’m tired of Vinnie always yellnig at me, Mika always asking me for money, and you always asking me for rides, I can’t take it any more!” and stormed out of the house.
She also said “Mike is 18, I’m leaving, he can take care of you. You can fend for yourselves!”. Gina started running out of the house crying, while Mike was also bawling, with Gina saying “Just abandon us like dad did!” Gina’s father had did years earlier. Gina ended up gonig to her neighbor Kimba’s house, but called Becky and me, because we have been best friends since we were all seriously about two years old, so yeah. She needs her best friends.
I will update you on this.
September 3rd?
Yep, that’s when school starts. I honestly cannot wait. I rteally want school to come, because I want to try my hardest this year …
But I’m afraid I won’t finish my summer work. XD
Yeah, that’d pretty much suck REALLY badly.
It’s Sunday, School starts on Wednesday …
Wow, Waste of Time.
Better Now
I’m happier now. I’m not really depressed anymore. ;p
I managed to beat this asian girl in ‘Who Has The Biggest Brain?’ app on facebook, and I was talking to this guy from like, not too far away, although I’ve never met him. I know him from this Ayumi Hamasaki fan forum, AHS (http://www.ahsforum.com/forum), yeah, we talked about j-pop. So that was cool, and he’sfrom New Jersey, so that’s cool too.
I love seeing New Jersian J-pop fans.
