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I’m Lost at Sea
“This lonesliness suites me quite well, don’t you think?”. I heard Leah Dizon say that in her song “Lost at Sea” off her new album, “Communication!!!”. It really made me think about myself, my personality and my image. I thought for a bit, “is that me?”, “am i that person?’. Do I come off as that person who seems to enjoy loneliness? Do I just repress it to the point where I think I hate it even though I don’t? Regardless of what thoughts I think, I don’t think it’s true. I got up and walked out of my room, down the hall way. Still thinking, I went to my bed and slept …
EXPLANATION AFTER THE BREAK
Summer Reading
So School starts on Tuesday.
I still have to read two books. These are them.
Wish You Well by David Baldacci
A Free Life by Ha Jin
so yeah. They are both decently sized. I’m dreading gonig back to school for only this reason …
oh, boi.
for some dumb reason …
Gina’s mom won’t let her sleep over my house. Isn’t it a bit weird that she said she can fend for herself yet she is preventing her from doing what she wants? I think, in my opinion, it is purely out of spite.
If I was her, I know I wouldn’t want to stay there …
I would probably go insane.
Well, I hope they settle their problems becuase I don’t want to see someone i’ve known for so long in pain.
I’ve realized my loneliness
Not only do I feel romantic loneliness, but also loneliness regarding friendship. My friends Veronica, Juliet and Matt all moved into their college either today or yesterday, and the chances of me talking to them-let alone seeing them-is very slim anymore.
Many-and I mean many- of my other good friends are also starting college. Colleen, Katelyn, and even more. The worst thing about it, and yet also the best for them, is that they are all going to really good colleges. Seton Hall, NYU … all good colleges, all of them.
I’m feeling so lonely right now it’s not even funny. I don’t have that many trustworthy friends left.
But I have to remain strong. I mean, I still need to finish high school. I’m going to be a sophomore, this is no time to be sad.
No matter what pain you may feel
No matter what lonesliness may come
You mustn’t close your eyes to it
(Ayumi Hamasaki ; SURREAL)
a friend’s distress
my friend Gina and my cousin Becky (who happen to be best friends) are sleeping over my house today. It’s because the can’t stay at Becky’s and Gina is too depressed to go back home. Her mom had yelled at Gina and her brother and stormed out of the house, saying “I’m tired of Vinnie always yellnig at me, Mika always asking me for money, and you always asking me for rides, I can’t take it any more!” and stormed out of the house.
She also said “Mike is 18, I’m leaving, he can take care of you. You can fend for yourselves!”. Gina started running out of the house crying, while Mike was also bawling, with Gina saying “Just abandon us like dad did!” Gina’s father had did years earlier. Gina ended up gonig to her neighbor Kimba’s house, but called Becky and me, because we have been best friends since we were all seriously about two years old, so yeah. She needs her best friends.
I will update you on this.
September 3rd?
Yep, that’s when school starts. I honestly cannot wait. I rteally want school to come, because I want to try my hardest this year …
But I’m afraid I won’t finish my summer work. XD
Yeah, that’d pretty much suck REALLY badly.
It’s Sunday, School starts on Wednesday …
