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ayumi hamasaki @ a-nation ’08
apparently at a-nation ayumi performed in the pouring rain! Here are the two AWESOME pictures! So gorgeous, Ayu, as always!
Ayumi Hamasaki @ a-nation '08
ayumi hamasaki @ a-nation '08
VIDEOS ; AFTER THE BREAK
oh, boi.
for some dumb reason …
Gina’s mom won’t let her sleep over my house. Isn’t it a bit weird that she said she can fend for herself yet she is preventing her from doing what she wants? I think, in my opinion, it is purely out of spite.
If I was her, I know I wouldn’t want to stay there …
I would probably go insane.
Well, I hope they settle their problems becuase I don’t want to see someone i’ve known for so long in pain.
I’ve realized my loneliness
Not only do I feel romantic loneliness, but also loneliness regarding friendship. My friends Veronica, Juliet and Matt all moved into their college either today or yesterday, and the chances of me talking to them-let alone seeing them-is very slim anymore.
Many-and I mean many- of my other good friends are also starting college. Colleen, Katelyn, and even more. The worst thing about it, and yet also the best for them, is that they are all going to really good colleges. Seton Hall, NYU … all good colleges, all of them.
I’m feeling so lonely right now it’s not even funny. I don’t have that many trustworthy friends left.
But I have to remain strong. I mean, I still need to finish high school. I’m going to be a sophomore, this is no time to be sad.
No matter what pain you may feel
No matter what lonesliness may come
You mustn’t close your eyes to it
(Ayumi Hamasaki ; SURREAL)
something (crappy) i made for my friend ;p
I made this for my friend Colleen! I personally think it’s gaudy and that I could do SO much better, but yeah, she LOVES it so i guess that’s enough for me.
*click thumbnail for full image*
The 'myspace fan-sign' i made for Colleen!
a poem i wrote, ‘all in vain’
I don’t really know if anybody here knows this, but I’m very fond if writing. Here is a poem while In a very dark mood. That being said, the poem is kind of dark also. Basically, the story was the fact that I found a guy who I really liked a lot. I didn’t pursue mainly because there were just tons of conflicting circumstances where it couldn’t work, and I was depressed about that. Although, I am ok now. :3
‘all in vain’
These thoughts that are floating in my mind
These feelings that are flowing out my heart
The love that I have was hard to find
I lost my happiness, although just a part
The search was unbearable
Yet the pain was worth it
And now, the happiness is real
But the love is useless
a friend’s distress
my friend Gina and my cousin Becky (who happen to be best friends) are sleeping over my house today. It’s because the can’t stay at Becky’s and Gina is too depressed to go back home. Her mom had yelled at Gina and her brother and stormed out of the house, saying “I’m tired of Vinnie always yellnig at me, Mika always asking me for money, and you always asking me for rides, I can’t take it any more!” and stormed out of the house.
She also said “Mike is 18, I’m leaving, he can take care of you. You can fend for yourselves!”. Gina started running out of the house crying, while Mike was also bawling, with Gina saying “Just abandon us like dad did!” Gina’s father had did years earlier. Gina ended up gonig to her neighbor Kimba’s house, but called Becky and me, because we have been best friends since we were all seriously about two years old, so yeah. She needs her best friends.
I will update you on this.
Some songs I recommend for You :D
Alright, here are FIVE songs that i LOVE so i am recommending them for you! These aren’t my favorite songs ever, jsut my favorite songs of the now. D:
Tsubomi by Kobukuro Ok, this song is folk awesomeness at it’s best, seriously. It’s really sad and beautiful. It’s about Kobuchi’s mom, apparently, who had passed away. Tsubomi means “Flower Bud”. “Tsubomi” was a #1 single for their album 5296.
Okaeri by ayaka Another really great folk song. It has really awesome instrumentals and is just amazing to listen to. “Okeari” means “Welcome Home” and was the last single released before her album “Sing to the Sky”.
BxKxRxxx by Leah Dizon BxKxRxxx is the highlight of a seriously craptastic album, no joke. “Communication!!!” is probably hands down one of the worst albums of the year. Despite not being a single, this song is amazing and has a much cooler arangement and melody than all the other songs on the album.
LOVE2000 by Namie Amuro Alright, this is a Tetsuya Koura-prduced pop song, and let me say it’s kick ass! It was the last single released before her album “GENIUS 2000″.
INFINITY 18 by Ami Suzuki “INFINITY 18″ is another really bad-ass pop song produced by Tetsuya Komuro right around the same time, so yeah. It is the title track to her second album, which was obviously titled “INFINITY 18″
September 3rd?
Yep, that’s when school starts. I honestly cannot wait. I rteally want school to come, because I want to try my hardest this year …
But I’m afraid I won’t finish my summer work. XD
Yeah, that’d pretty much suck REALLY badly.
It’s Sunday, School starts on Wednesday …
every time i wake up …
Every Time I wake up, I’m hoping that Ayumi Hamasaki will announce a new single, but alas, she does not.
I was expectinb her to announce it last week …
It’s maknig me sad. 
I can’t live with my Ayu.
